Given the recent outbreak of measles in California and surrounding states (and pertussis since 2002), a disease the CDC thought eliminated in the United States back in 2000, traceable back to a family who did not have their child vaccinated against the disease (and presumably others) had me wondering just why it is the state of education when it comes to human health has fallen so because I think it goes deeper than the oft-cited phrase I use: that vaccines are victims of their own success.
And while I think that is partly true as the group least likely to vaccinate their children are young adults 18-29 (41% believe the decision should be left up to the parents) who just so happen to be mostly second-generation inheritors of a world largely free of humanity's old scourges. You have to dig pretty deep now to find those with a living memory of measles, mumps, rubella, yellow fever, scarlet fever, smallpox, polio, typhus, pertussis, etc. My parents were among the last to get measles and mumps and for them, it was almost 50 years ago when they were still children so their memories of the illness are likely as vague as my memory of having influenza when I was 7 (I mostly remember not having to go to school for a week. I couldn't tell you how high my fever was or how much I ached, etc. anymore).
It would be their parents who would remember the diseases and how they affected their children and in my case, all my grandparents are dead so there's no one left in my family to tell the tale. It would not surprise me if the majority of the living memory of these diseases exists in people born prior to 1940 and their number grows fewer with each passing year.
I remember my 8th grade history teacher, who was near retirement at the time (1992 if you really care - she would retire in 1995), talking about how one of her best friends had become stricken with polio and died when she was a little girl and how Summers, times which we now associate with fun, were scary times because that's when the diseases like polio tended to strike.
But I also think of the kinds of diseases largely eliminated by vaccines. They have something in common: all those diseases affected the population more-or-less randomly as many were airborne. Getting measles and smallpox was more a matter of bad luck rather than the result of having failed to take adequate precautions. They affected everyone, young and old; rich and poor. Famous examples include Andrew Jackson who got smallpox as a teenager and Franklin Roosevelt who got polio as an adult, not to mention the countless hundreds of millions of people who had been stricken throughout the course of human history.
But I think it was that sucks-to-be-you factor behind the old scourges that made people sympathetic to vaccination. To be fair, it was commonly resisted even into the 20th century as this political cartoon from 1930 attests:
Those mainly against vaccination back in the day were religionists who saw the plagues and scourges through Old Testament eyes and not, distrusting the scientific advances of the day, as microscopic diseases avoidable through hygiene, prevention, and vaccination, but as punishments from God. God would not give such diseases to those who did not deserve them so it was both insulting to offer up a vaccine to a faithful believer (implying he was somehow not favored) as well as to offer it up to sinners and heathens (who are you to interefere with God's plan?).
There was also the argument that one's body is one's own and that they alone should be able to take care of their body (and those of their children) as they see fit. Something I'll get back to later.
In cases like these where, typically smallpox as that was the first vaccine, vaccination efforts were resisted either at the insistence of religious and/or lay authority and those communities would invariably be affected by a resurgence of the disease until vaccination rates were on the rise once more.
Another cause of vaccine resistance was apathy resulting from prior successful vaccination efforts. As the incidences of said diseases plummeted, and especially in the case of smallpox when it's more deadly cousin (variola major - estimated 30% mortality rate) had been eliminated, the public would start wondering why they should be inoculated against a disease which appears to have gone and when the one that remained was hardly life-threatening? (the mortality rate for variola minor was less than 1%) To combat this apathy, efforts were made to make vaccination compulsory as a matter of public health though not every state would take such measures.
I think what has changed though, is that the diseases (with certain exceptions) you read about in the newspaper and online today are almost always the result of carelessness.
You got salmonella poisoning? Well, you didn't cook that chicken properly nor that of your food preparation surfaces.
You got E. Coli poisoning? Well, you didn't thoroughly wash those spinach leaves on your salad.
You got lung cancer? Well, that's what you get for smoking.
You got pink eye? Well, you shouldn't be rubbing your eyes with your dirty hands.
You got West Nile virus? Well, you should've worn bug spray when outside.
You got cirrhosis of the liver? Well, maybe you shouldn't've been drinking so much all your life.
You got skin cancer? Well, that's what happens when you tan too much.
The list goes on. The point is, a lot of (and I would the majority) of diseases typically encountered in life today all belong to this Unsympathetic Class. That is, they're all preventable diseases requiring oftentimes minimal hygiene practices and minor lifestyle changes to prevent. When someone gets E. Coli poisoning, with the exception of small children, it does not evoke sympathy for the sufferer as one feels that this person should've known better.
I think the broadest class of diseases today that evoke sympathy are most forms of cancer and autism. Right now things like cancers of the breast, pancreas, brain, bone, stomach, etc. evoke strong sympathy from those hearing your diagnosis. So unless you've spent your adult life insisting upon wearing a radium pendant, no one could possibly blame you for getting such a disease. Getting cancer is (largely seen as [see above]) not your fault so the hearts of strangers are with you and much money is willing to be donated and spent in search of cures.
A similar thing could be said of autism. As of now, its victims are seemingly random. Families who discover their child is autistic get sympathy from strangers because they see the condition for what it is: a terrible, random occurrence for which they are willing to donate and spend much money in search of effective treatments and ideally, a cure.
Such a cure may come, though I think like Down Syndrome, the cure will not come in the form of a restorative but that of an in utero genetic test as autism is showing signs of it being a genetic predisposition rather than a developmental one like Fetal Alcohol Syndrome. Once such a test exists, it is safe to say autism will be largely "cured" through abortion rather than by a curative agent after which, the sympathy factor for autism, now that it would be entirely preventable, will practically disappear. If you've noticed, there's not a whole lot of sympathy for those who deliberately have Down Syndrome kids anymore: such parents are viewed as kind of selfish, even as cruel. I think autism's day will come too.
And before you go thinking that what I've just written is terrible, imagine a day when all cancers are curable in a way that leaves a person healthy (as opposed to now where treatments work more by attrition, that is, kill the cancer faster than you kill the patient) how you might react to someone refusing treatment.
And I think because commonly encountered diseases today do have this element of "it's your fault if you get them", that it affects the decision-making of that 18-29 crowd mentioned above.
It probably also does not help that one of the last sets of diseases that are random is the common cold. As it is it is only a minor nuisance that is easily overcome and the sympathy factor for it is practically nil as we've come to believe that it is through prevention (and even our innate desire to overcome it through force of will) that the common cold may be avoided when the reality is that it is much more the result of bad luck.
If this is your only experience with disease, you may be more prone to overlooking the dangers. There's also the conceit factor (which I'll admit to falling for) in that the old scourges were in black and white times when technology was crappier, people were less educated, and scientific knowledge was considerably less than what it is today. It may result in an arrogance that we not only know better than our forefathers but that, in the event the disease should resurge, our technological savvy and medical know-how will keep it under control. We armchair-quarterback the past using our present-day knowledge to believe that, if we were in those situations, that it would not have happened to us, living in full denial that these scourges were not as preventable as we might like to think.
In that way, and this is strange to think, it might be argued that the increasing stance against vaccination is surprisingly an overabundance of optimism in our medical knowledge.
Ultimately though, what I think it comes down to is that vaccination must be looked upon as a civic duty and not a personal choice. For analogy, I would offer up environmentalism.
Say I owned a large plot of land with plentiful resources and a river flowing through it and that I had a desire to develop that land for commercial purposes. I'm building a factory.
Is this factory allowed to simply pipe the CO2, SO2, and soot it generates into the air? No? Why not? Is this not my land? Do I not have the right to develop it as I see fit? The smokestack rises high into the air. I don't even smell it. My air is clean.
But what I will be told is that the air does not belong to me nor to any one person. The air belongs to all of us. The pollution I am putting into the air may dissipate but it did not disappear. Studies show that the effects of the pollution are cumulative. Downwind the soot and sulfur dioxide affect plant and animal life. Worldwide the increase in carbon dioxide slowly warms the planet. Therefore I am made to minimize my contribution to this pollution using filters and scrubbers, cleaner fuels, renewable energy, etc.
My factory generates liquid waste so would this factory be allowed to simply dump its waste into the river? No? Why? Again, does not this river which runs through my land belong to me? Do I not have a right to use its water as I see fit? The waste is carried away leaving my water clean.
But what I am told is the river traverses many plots of land like mine and that what I dump to flow downstream will affect such water owned by those who live along the river (not to mention the wildlife that also depends on it). Like the air, the river belongs to more than just one person so it must be treated in the same manner, as a community good. I have to also consider how I might feel about a similar factory upstream dumping its waste into the river and how it would affect my operations and the water's potability. And that's just waste water, imagine had I wanted to build a dam to hydroelectrically power my factory!
And this analogy would continue through the dumping of solid waste. Again, is this waste toxic? Is it seeping into the ground affecting the groundwater supply? Are plants incorporating toxic metals into their fruits making them more hazardous for consumption? Is it bringing disease-carrying rats/flies/mosquitoes into the area? How long will it remain hazardous? Etc. Why am I being forced to acknowledge the impact of my actions on other people? Why do I have to spend all this money and expend all this effort on things that are not me using my land as I see fit? Why must things never be simple?
Surely some pollution is okay, right? And to that I would say yes. Some pollution is necessary for there to be progress but not all pollution is the same. The carbon dioxide produced by this factory is taken up by plant life, neutralizing it. The trees cut down for lumber grow back and wastewood restores nutrients to the soil. Water taken from the river is replaced by rain. Etc. But small amounts of metals like lead, while they exist naturally all around, become exceedingly toxic when concentrated so this factory cannot simply dump these kinds of metals just anywhere. Rocks removed from a quarry do not grow back. Overdrawn rivers dry up affecting everyone's ability to get a drink. Deforested land may never recover. Overfished rivers soon offer up little to eat. Too much carbon dioxide in the atmosphere and plants will be unable to retake it all. Too much phosphorus in the waste water will produce algal blooms which create dead zones in the sea. Concentrated radioactivity is dangerous for all life (except weird bacteria). The list goes on.
So while in the name of progress we must tolerate some pollution, we mustn't tolerate unnecessary pollution. I feel, if one is an environmentalist, believing that the world belongs to no one but rather everyone and that it is everyone's responsibility for our continued survival and prosperity, one should take upon themselves a similar view with vaccinations and other forms of disease control.
It's not that these diseases, the old scourges, are deadly. Diseases like measles rarely result in death. They even produce complications like pneumonia, encephalitis, deafness, sterility, or paralysis only rarely as well. No, the problem is that they spread and thus take hold in a population easily. Far more easily than any diseases we know today. Even the latest scary disease, Ebola, spreads poorly (and arguably unsympathetically [see above]).
I think that's why we're seeing pertussis and measles coming back first as their communicability is about 80% and 90% respectively. These diseases, in a sense, represent environmental pollution that affects more than the individual alone.
And nothing is perfect. Just as no vaccine is 100% effective (as no one's immune system is 100% effective), no control for pollution is 100% effective either. A drought, for instance, will affect both the ability of a river to disperse pollutants (as well as supply drinking water to inhabitants and its ability to hold dissolved oxygen for its inhabitants) as it will affect a forest's ability to soak up excess carbon dioxide (and a forest fire will add to the CO2 totals). But both are kept in control by storing excess rainwater and through careful land management (and even as we've learned, controlled burns).
I figure if one loves the Earth and its biomes and ecosystems and feels they must be preserved to the best extent possible via what amounts to the Butterfly Effect, then one ought to view humanity itself as an ecosystem and seeing as we are all in this together, look out for one and other and do our part to keep from inadvertently polluting another person's body through no fault of their own.
Or something like that anyway...
Whatever you read here, please, don't try to find any sense. Any salient points made and supportable claims found are entirely coincidental and/or made in error and should not be taken as indications that I am capable of performing critical analysis or having informed opinions. I am an undereducated buffoon whose only saving grace is his ability to spell.
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Thursday, January 22, 2015
VIDEOGAME MUSIC
A project I've been enjoying as of late has been making a mix-tape of videogame music, or whatever it is mix-tapes are called today since they're digital files organized on a flash drive.
Videogame music is like the classical music of my generation and thanks to sites like YouTube, Zophar's Domain, NES-SNES-SPRITES, and a few others, it's been possible to compile a collection of soundtracks from the game systems I've owned over the years and even the music from some old arcade games that took many of my quarters years ago.
I've learned that I've played a lot of games over the years. So far I have almost 600 songs from the Atari2600, Atari5200, NES, SNES, Sega Genesis, Game Boy, PC-DOS, and arcade systems. I didn't think there would be so many and some, like end-of-game boss rushes were made into medleys. I've almost got everything I can remember. It just can be tedious editing the music for two cycles and a proper fade-out.
But like I said, it's been fun and the resulting USB drive of 8 and 16-bit soundtracks is fun to listen to.
Videogame music is like the classical music of my generation and thanks to sites like YouTube, Zophar's Domain, NES-SNES-SPRITES, and a few others, it's been possible to compile a collection of soundtracks from the game systems I've owned over the years and even the music from some old arcade games that took many of my quarters years ago.
I've learned that I've played a lot of games over the years. So far I have almost 600 songs from the Atari2600, Atari5200, NES, SNES, Sega Genesis, Game Boy, PC-DOS, and arcade systems. I didn't think there would be so many and some, like end-of-game boss rushes were made into medleys. I've almost got everything I can remember. It just can be tedious editing the music for two cycles and a proper fade-out.
But like I said, it's been fun and the resulting USB drive of 8 and 16-bit soundtracks is fun to listen to.
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
ATB QUARTER MINTAGES: WHERE ARE THEY NOW? (2014 update)
Last year, I found myself bored and wondered how the mintages for the America the Beautiful (ATB) Quarter program were comparing to the recently concluded State Quarter program and found, that as of 2013, the mintage of the entire ATB Quarter program still had not exceeded, after four years of production, the first year of the State Quarter mintages.
2014's mintages have been released so I feel it is time to update this entry and compare once again.
To recap, the mintages from the 1999 State Quarter program were 2.23 billion quarters produced at the Philadelphia mint and 2.21 billion quarters produced at the Denver mint for a total mintage of 4,430.8 million quarters which broke down as follows:
Total mintage for Delaware was 774.8 million pieces
Total mintage for Pennsylvania was 707.3 million pieces
Total mintage for New Jersey was 662.2 million pieces
Total mintage for Georgia was 939.9 million pieces
Total mintage for Connecticut was 1,346.6 million pieces
Additionally, we last left off with the production percentages of ATB Quarters to date compared to State Quarter production as follows:
Of 1999 total: 62.2% with DE: 100% - PA: 100% - NJ: 100% - GA: 65.67% - CT: 0%
The combined production totals for 2010-2013 were 2,761.4 million quarters. For Georgia, an additional 322.8 million quarters will need to be produced to exceed that state's mintage in the order.
The total production of 2014 ATB Quarters was 717.4 million from the Philadelphia mint and 862.8 million from the Denver mint for a combined total of 1,580.2 million quarters, a very slight increase over the 2013 mintages.
The combined mintages of the Great Smoky Mountains and Shenandoah quarters finally pushed the ATB Quarter series to 117% of Georgia's production. However, while the 2014 quarters are now eating into Connecticut's mintage, the year's total remaining production from the Arches, Great Sand Dunes, and Everglades quarters would still not be enough to exceed 1999's mintage, though only barely, missing the mark by 89.2 million quarters.
So after five years the America the Beautiful Quarter program, now half complete, has just about equaled the State Quarter program's first year of production.
Admittedly it is not a fair comparison as both 1999 and 2000 were unusually high production years for all coins. Nevertheless I find it interesting to see the comparison unfold. I wonder in the end what the comparison percentages will be?
As for now...
Of the 1999 total: 98.6% with DE: 100% - PA: 100% - NJ: 100% - GA: 100% - CT: 93.4%
2014-dated quarters are:
Of total 1965-1998 quarter production (37,463 million pieces): 4.22%
Of total State Quarter production (1999-2009 : 35,451.2 million pieces): 4.46%
Of total clad quarter production (1965-2014): 2.045% [about 1 in 49 quarters will be dated 2014]
And of all quarters made from 1965-2014 (77,255.8 million pieces):
1965-1998 clad quarters make up 49.5% of the total [about 1 in 2 quarters]
State Quarters make up 46.85% of the total [about 1 in 2 quarters]
1999-dated quarters make up 5.70% of the total [about 1 in 18 quarters]
ATB Quarters from 2010-2014 make up 5.62% of the total [about 1 in 18 quarters]
2014's mintages have been released so I feel it is time to update this entry and compare once again.
To recap, the mintages from the 1999 State Quarter program were 2.23 billion quarters produced at the Philadelphia mint and 2.21 billion quarters produced at the Denver mint for a total mintage of 4,430.8 million quarters which broke down as follows:
Total mintage for Delaware was 774.8 million pieces
Total mintage for Pennsylvania was 707.3 million pieces
Total mintage for New Jersey was 662.2 million pieces
Total mintage for Georgia was 939.9 million pieces
Total mintage for Connecticut was 1,346.6 million pieces
Additionally, we last left off with the production percentages of ATB Quarters to date compared to State Quarter production as follows:
Of 1999 total: 62.2% with DE: 100% - PA: 100% - NJ: 100% - GA: 65.67% - CT: 0%
The combined production totals for 2010-2013 were 2,761.4 million quarters. For Georgia, an additional 322.8 million quarters will need to be produced to exceed that state's mintage in the order.
The total production of 2014 ATB Quarters was 717.4 million from the Philadelphia mint and 862.8 million from the Denver mint for a combined total of 1,580.2 million quarters, a very slight increase over the 2013 mintages.
The combined mintages of the Great Smoky Mountains and Shenandoah quarters finally pushed the ATB Quarter series to 117% of Georgia's production. However, while the 2014 quarters are now eating into Connecticut's mintage, the year's total remaining production from the Arches, Great Sand Dunes, and Everglades quarters would still not be enough to exceed 1999's mintage, though only barely, missing the mark by 89.2 million quarters.
So after five years the America the Beautiful Quarter program, now half complete, has just about equaled the State Quarter program's first year of production.
Admittedly it is not a fair comparison as both 1999 and 2000 were unusually high production years for all coins. Nevertheless I find it interesting to see the comparison unfold. I wonder in the end what the comparison percentages will be?
As for now...
Of the 1999 total: 98.6% with DE: 100% - PA: 100% - NJ: 100% - GA: 100% - CT: 93.4%
2014-dated quarters are:
Of total 1965-1998 quarter production (37,463 million pieces): 4.22%
Of total State Quarter production (1999-2009 : 35,451.2 million pieces): 4.46%
Of total clad quarter production (1965-2014): 2.045% [about 1 in 49 quarters will be dated 2014]
And of all quarters made from 1965-2014 (77,255.8 million pieces):
1965-1998 clad quarters make up 49.5% of the total [about 1 in 2 quarters]
State Quarters make up 46.85% of the total [about 1 in 2 quarters]
1999-dated quarters make up 5.70% of the total [about 1 in 18 quarters]
ATB Quarters from 2010-2014 make up 5.62% of the total [about 1 in 18 quarters]
LOGICAL FALLACIES...
While I see it most whenever the latest atrocity committed in the name of Islam is committed, the fact is, it could be applied to most anything. Inevitably in any such article you'll read a variant of:
What exactly does that mean? Isn't that true of everything after a fashion? It's a statement that looks logical but I'm certain contains a fallacy though for the life of me I don't know which one (or ones). I never took a logic class. I wish I had.
It just seems like a statement to absolve a group from any and all responsibility like what you read on practically every vitamin bottle/health food container after beneficial claims are made. There's always that asterisk: THESE STATEMENTS HAVE NOT BEEN EVALUATED BY THE FDA. THIS PRODUCT IS NOT INTENDED TO DIAGNOSE, TREAT, CURE OR PREVENT ANY DISEASE.
It's not that the claims are necessarily bullshit, it's just that no one has bothered to subject them to rigorous scientific scrutiny but the fact remains that statement can be made in small print on the backside of the package while the beneficial claims can be made boldly, front & center.
It's like a purity test. Only 100% counts. Anything less and they're not a real or true X. I mean, would you still consider a person a vegan if they ate meat ignorantly served to them (so as to be polite/not waste food) or if they were to accidentally eat meat or put on a borrowed pair of leather shoes because their feet were sore? I would.
It would seem strange and petty to strip someone of their title for committing an act of politeness or accidentally transgressing, no?
Is Islam an inherently war-like religion? I don't know and I doubt it. Most people seem content to live their lives without bothering anybody or imposing upon them.
If I had to guess, I would say Islam is more a convenient tool for terrorism than a cause of it. I mean, the Bible is full of heinous stories that I'm guessing people would rather ignore/forget (and certainly not act upon) in order to focus on the good stuff. It strikes me as no different than those would use immigrants or those not of their race as scapegoats for current problems rather to tackle those problems in earnest. It seems easier to gather people to your will in anger, envy, and violence than it does to bring people together for a common good. Humanity doesn't seem to like the idea of a rising tide lifting all boats. We appear to remain a selfish lot who would wish only for ourselves and our loyal group to be raised thusly, leaving the rest to suffer and believe in our hearts that they are inferior and deserving of their fate.
You have a combination of shared religious identity and the cultural memory that your religion was once very powerful and commanding. What greater way to sway a disadvantaged group to your side is there than the promise of a return to "the good old days"?
And that, is what I think is going on.
Though I think those who proffer such statements of So&So is not a real X because of Y are just trying to rationalize, more to themselves than to others, that nothing is rotten in the state of Denmark. They don't want to accept the possibility that people could be motivated to commit to heinous acts, violent acts, terroristic acts, etc. in the name of X group.
I don't know what I'm trying to say so I'll end it here...
ADDENDUM (03/17/2015): I have recently been informed by Alias TBA that what I am thinking of is an informal fallacy called the "No True Scotsman" fallacy which appears to be part of a larger fallacy group called the Ad Hoc Hypothesis. Good to know :-)
Islam is a religion of peace, therefore the perpetrators of this latest crime are not real Muslims.
What exactly does that mean? Isn't that true of everything after a fashion? It's a statement that looks logical but I'm certain contains a fallacy though for the life of me I don't know which one (or ones). I never took a logic class. I wish I had.
It just seems like a statement to absolve a group from any and all responsibility like what you read on practically every vitamin bottle/health food container after beneficial claims are made. There's always that asterisk: THESE STATEMENTS HAVE NOT BEEN EVALUATED BY THE FDA. THIS PRODUCT IS NOT INTENDED TO DIAGNOSE, TREAT, CURE OR PREVENT ANY DISEASE.
It's not that the claims are necessarily bullshit, it's just that no one has bothered to subject them to rigorous scientific scrutiny but the fact remains that statement can be made in small print on the backside of the package while the beneficial claims can be made boldly, front & center.
It's like a purity test. Only 100% counts. Anything less and they're not a real or true X. I mean, would you still consider a person a vegan if they ate meat ignorantly served to them (so as to be polite/not waste food) or if they were to accidentally eat meat or put on a borrowed pair of leather shoes because their feet were sore? I would.
It would seem strange and petty to strip someone of their title for committing an act of politeness or accidentally transgressing, no?
Is Islam an inherently war-like religion? I don't know and I doubt it. Most people seem content to live their lives without bothering anybody or imposing upon them.
If I had to guess, I would say Islam is more a convenient tool for terrorism than a cause of it. I mean, the Bible is full of heinous stories that I'm guessing people would rather ignore/forget (and certainly not act upon) in order to focus on the good stuff. It strikes me as no different than those would use immigrants or those not of their race as scapegoats for current problems rather to tackle those problems in earnest. It seems easier to gather people to your will in anger, envy, and violence than it does to bring people together for a common good. Humanity doesn't seem to like the idea of a rising tide lifting all boats. We appear to remain a selfish lot who would wish only for ourselves and our loyal group to be raised thusly, leaving the rest to suffer and believe in our hearts that they are inferior and deserving of their fate.
You have a combination of shared religious identity and the cultural memory that your religion was once very powerful and commanding. What greater way to sway a disadvantaged group to your side is there than the promise of a return to "the good old days"?
And that, is what I think is going on.
Though I think those who proffer such statements of So&So is not a real X because of Y are just trying to rationalize, more to themselves than to others, that nothing is rotten in the state of Denmark. They don't want to accept the possibility that people could be motivated to commit to heinous acts, violent acts, terroristic acts, etc. in the name of X group.
I don't know what I'm trying to say so I'll end it here...
ADDENDUM (03/17/2015): I have recently been informed by Alias TBA that what I am thinking of is an informal fallacy called the "No True Scotsman" fallacy which appears to be part of a larger fallacy group called the Ad Hoc Hypothesis. Good to know :-)
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Tuesday, January 6, 2015
TO CONTINUE...
Gandalf's description of how the One Ring grants its bearer immortality feels like such an apt description for much else in life.
The more I read about Tolkien's mythology, the more I find it such a remarkable way of looking at things. Although we are not Valar nor Maiar, I find the idea that we have within us a native strength (or power) which can be spent to our fortune or peril an interesting one.
The great evil ones, Melkor and Sauron, spent their spirits in envy and hate in their respective attempts to dominate the very matter of Earth and its inhabitants, growing weaker over time. Once mighty and seemingly invincible, they would, over time, lose their ability to shapeshift, no longer be able to create new things to use against the existing order (instead being able to only make parodies and corruptions of works already made), and take on wounds which would no longer heal.
The great maia, Sauron, would impart much of his remaining native strength into the One Ring so that it would be able to dominate the other nineteen rings of power. When he wore it, the One Ring made him even stronger than before but should the ring be destroyed, it would take with it that native strength Sauron had poured into it so there was a risk involved for any spirit who wished to go against the natural order of things.
It makes me think of how we live our lives and the values and desires we place in things and in people. I feel like I have invested much of my native strength in the wrong girls and it has left me considerably weaker for my troubles. The last time I felt my native strength increasing was when I was in college back in late 1998/early 1999...but mostly in 1998.
I had met many new friends (even girls who found me desirable) and for perhaps the only time in my life, had a near-daily exposure to love and acceptance. I felt a part of something bigger than me for the only time in my life. If I were somehow able to quantify my native strength and add up the percentages of it placed into other people and things and that which is still left in me, the number would be greater than 100% mostly for that time but also for times in my past like it (such as when I started getting to know my Best Friend and other friends both remaining and lost in my life).
My last happy New Year was the changeover from 1999 to 2000. So far, the 21st century has held little to no happiness for me and as I now find myself well into it. I am also less than ten years away from the pivot point whereby I become a 21st century man (that is, soon I will have existed longer in the 21st century than I did in the 20th...another of my weird thoughts/realizations).
But I know I squandered a large part of myself in the First One. It felt only natural and I did so out of ignorance. While foolish in retrospect, how was I to know at the time she wasn't "the one"? First love is foolish love much as is all young love. Still...I miss her and the nervous energy she imparted on me that I was then able to transform into creative and artistic pursuits like drawing, poetry, and most proudly, a constructed language.
The First One would come to be known to me as a personification of idealization. She is what attraction means to me and what it means to be in love. All those who have followed (and even those who preceded) are compared to her, being either greater or lesser. In a mythological sense, she would be the physical manifestation of a god, specifically of Aphrodite. In a different and more modern sense I would describe her as a "genetic attraction", which was most definitely eugenic in nature as I recall myself, even as a young teenager, wanting to merge my DNA with her own as if our respective DNAs would result in a more superior human than she already was. That's a strange thought I admit and to this day, while I would most certainly prefer to do so the, uh..."natural" or "fun" way, I would be happy to have her accept my DNA via artificial insemination just to bring about that genetic fulfillment.
Smaller parts of me would be invested in nearly a dozen other girls and more still in lost friends, but the next great investment was in Digby, the source of many downer posts in this blog. I saw in her a salvation of sorts. She appeared to me as the actual "one" I had been spending my life looking for (and this time a human right from the start rather than the fleshy goddess that was the First One) as I now had many more years of experience and working knowledge of who I am and what I had wanted. I felt able to see our compatibility but ultimately, I had deceived myself...
Don't get me wrong. I still believe with all my heart that Digby is right for me. It's just...what I never considered and what would thus be my downfall, was that it never occurred to me just how cruel nature is when it comes to love. I made the mistake of believing, because I had never properly had it contradicted prior, that compatibility is more of a scalar than what it truly is, a vector.
You see, compatibility has a direction to it: it's not a universal number or quality. Digby is good enough (maybe even ideally so)...but only for me. But I am not perfect for her. It seems an impossible thought but it's sadly so very true.
For the longest time I went through life believing that if you found a person you were compatible with that it was only natural that they too would be compatible with you. It might take some convincing, but I truly believed compatibility was like an equation. In this case, different sets of numbers that added up to the same result (a simplified example being 4+5 = 108÷12 ...seemingly different in all ways but nevertheless, their underlying nature, that they are both manifestations of 9, is the same). But no, compatibility is not a simple equation...it is a vector. The direction compatibility moves in matters (like how whether a targeted item in a supermarket will appear on the left side or right side of an aisle depends on the direction you enter said aisle) and resultant vectors cannot be found simply by adding two (or more) vectors together.
The maddening result of all this grief is the knowledge that you can be great for someone but that you, in turn, are not necessarily great for them. It is a seeming defiance of logic but it is most assuredly true and a depressing truth at that. Perhaps if I had learned that lesson at an earlier age...
Digby would become the personification of desire in many, if not all, of its manifestations and especially representative of my desire to do right by and for a woman; to be her one and only; to be the father, and properly so, to her children; to give of myself that she and my progeny might experience a life most fitting for them. Digby was truly a dream given form...
Now if only I might find that (as of yet unknown) Third One who is this time as compatible with me as I am with her.
However, to get back to my opening statements, I feel I have been living a life without purpose and I have been living this way largely for the last three to seven years depending on your reckoning and arguably I have been this way since finding the First One back in 1992 as fulfillment is not something that would ever be known to me.
Much of my native strength has been spent. It has left me feeling weak and my spirit fragile. It takes so much time now to find even the smallest amount of will to make a move and such strength is all too easily spent resulting in months of recovery from even the slightest of setbacks...time I really don't have anymore as my youth has been gone for some time now.
For the time being, I find myself bound spiritually to my Best Friend but she is not enough. She is like family and family does not represent the future nor does family represent change, whether the family we're born into or the family we choose. Love must ultimately manifest either literally in the form of children or spiritually in the form of a legacy which will outlive our physical forms. Our genes demand from us immortality. For me personally, that satisfaction requires a yin for my yang to be the means, undeniably female, for manifesting that immortality. But I have been denied such satisfaction...
And I feel that's what living with purposelessness is: it is merely survival, not life. The food I eat, the water I drink, and the air I breathe extend my life but mere acts of survival do not grow or obtain for me more life. They permit me only to continue and every day the burden of continuing makes me feel heavier and that heaviness is most certainly wearisome. It is not yet unbearable and while I have no intention of "doing" anything about it, it does leave me wondering just how much more my body can handle before it decides it has had enough or will I find my continuance, my merely surviving, to be corrupting like that of Sméagol as he became Gollum under the One Ring's influence and living on only as a shadow of my former, once hopeful, self,
...a living mockery of a man...
Like the other Great Rings of Power, [the One Ring] would extend the lifespan of its
owner indefinitely, but that person...would not grow
or obtain more life, but would merely continue, until every minute was
an unbearable weariness.
The more I read about Tolkien's mythology, the more I find it such a remarkable way of looking at things. Although we are not Valar nor Maiar, I find the idea that we have within us a native strength (or power) which can be spent to our fortune or peril an interesting one.
The great evil ones, Melkor and Sauron, spent their spirits in envy and hate in their respective attempts to dominate the very matter of Earth and its inhabitants, growing weaker over time. Once mighty and seemingly invincible, they would, over time, lose their ability to shapeshift, no longer be able to create new things to use against the existing order (instead being able to only make parodies and corruptions of works already made), and take on wounds which would no longer heal.
The great maia, Sauron, would impart much of his remaining native strength into the One Ring so that it would be able to dominate the other nineteen rings of power. When he wore it, the One Ring made him even stronger than before but should the ring be destroyed, it would take with it that native strength Sauron had poured into it so there was a risk involved for any spirit who wished to go against the natural order of things.
It makes me think of how we live our lives and the values and desires we place in things and in people. I feel like I have invested much of my native strength in the wrong girls and it has left me considerably weaker for my troubles. The last time I felt my native strength increasing was when I was in college back in late 1998/early 1999...but mostly in 1998.
I had met many new friends (even girls who found me desirable) and for perhaps the only time in my life, had a near-daily exposure to love and acceptance. I felt a part of something bigger than me for the only time in my life. If I were somehow able to quantify my native strength and add up the percentages of it placed into other people and things and that which is still left in me, the number would be greater than 100% mostly for that time but also for times in my past like it (such as when I started getting to know my Best Friend and other friends both remaining and lost in my life).
My last happy New Year was the changeover from 1999 to 2000. So far, the 21st century has held little to no happiness for me and as I now find myself well into it. I am also less than ten years away from the pivot point whereby I become a 21st century man (that is, soon I will have existed longer in the 21st century than I did in the 20th...another of my weird thoughts/realizations).
But I know I squandered a large part of myself in the First One. It felt only natural and I did so out of ignorance. While foolish in retrospect, how was I to know at the time she wasn't "the one"? First love is foolish love much as is all young love. Still...I miss her and the nervous energy she imparted on me that I was then able to transform into creative and artistic pursuits like drawing, poetry, and most proudly, a constructed language.
The First One would come to be known to me as a personification of idealization. She is what attraction means to me and what it means to be in love. All those who have followed (and even those who preceded) are compared to her, being either greater or lesser. In a mythological sense, she would be the physical manifestation of a god, specifically of Aphrodite. In a different and more modern sense I would describe her as a "genetic attraction", which was most definitely eugenic in nature as I recall myself, even as a young teenager, wanting to merge my DNA with her own as if our respective DNAs would result in a more superior human than she already was. That's a strange thought I admit and to this day, while I would most certainly prefer to do so the, uh..."natural" or "fun" way, I would be happy to have her accept my DNA via artificial insemination just to bring about that genetic fulfillment.
Smaller parts of me would be invested in nearly a dozen other girls and more still in lost friends, but the next great investment was in Digby, the source of many downer posts in this blog. I saw in her a salvation of sorts. She appeared to me as the actual "one" I had been spending my life looking for (and this time a human right from the start rather than the fleshy goddess that was the First One) as I now had many more years of experience and working knowledge of who I am and what I had wanted. I felt able to see our compatibility but ultimately, I had deceived myself...
Don't get me wrong. I still believe with all my heart that Digby is right for me. It's just...what I never considered and what would thus be my downfall, was that it never occurred to me just how cruel nature is when it comes to love. I made the mistake of believing, because I had never properly had it contradicted prior, that compatibility is more of a scalar than what it truly is, a vector.
You see, compatibility has a direction to it: it's not a universal number or quality. Digby is good enough (maybe even ideally so)...but only for me. But I am not perfect for her. It seems an impossible thought but it's sadly so very true.
For the longest time I went through life believing that if you found a person you were compatible with that it was only natural that they too would be compatible with you. It might take some convincing, but I truly believed compatibility was like an equation. In this case, different sets of numbers that added up to the same result (a simplified example being 4+5 = 108÷12 ...seemingly different in all ways but nevertheless, their underlying nature, that they are both manifestations of 9, is the same). But no, compatibility is not a simple equation...it is a vector. The direction compatibility moves in matters (like how whether a targeted item in a supermarket will appear on the left side or right side of an aisle depends on the direction you enter said aisle) and resultant vectors cannot be found simply by adding two (or more) vectors together.
The maddening result of all this grief is the knowledge that you can be great for someone but that you, in turn, are not necessarily great for them. It is a seeming defiance of logic but it is most assuredly true and a depressing truth at that. Perhaps if I had learned that lesson at an earlier age...
Digby would become the personification of desire in many, if not all, of its manifestations and especially representative of my desire to do right by and for a woman; to be her one and only; to be the father, and properly so, to her children; to give of myself that she and my progeny might experience a life most fitting for them. Digby was truly a dream given form...
Now if only I might find that (as of yet unknown) Third One who is this time as compatible with me as I am with her.
However, to get back to my opening statements, I feel I have been living a life without purpose and I have been living this way largely for the last three to seven years depending on your reckoning and arguably I have been this way since finding the First One back in 1992 as fulfillment is not something that would ever be known to me.
Much of my native strength has been spent. It has left me feeling weak and my spirit fragile. It takes so much time now to find even the smallest amount of will to make a move and such strength is all too easily spent resulting in months of recovery from even the slightest of setbacks...time I really don't have anymore as my youth has been gone for some time now.
For the time being, I find myself bound spiritually to my Best Friend but she is not enough. She is like family and family does not represent the future nor does family represent change, whether the family we're born into or the family we choose. Love must ultimately manifest either literally in the form of children or spiritually in the form of a legacy which will outlive our physical forms. Our genes demand from us immortality. For me personally, that satisfaction requires a yin for my yang to be the means, undeniably female, for manifesting that immortality. But I have been denied such satisfaction...
And I feel that's what living with purposelessness is: it is merely survival, not life. The food I eat, the water I drink, and the air I breathe extend my life but mere acts of survival do not grow or obtain for me more life. They permit me only to continue and every day the burden of continuing makes me feel heavier and that heaviness is most certainly wearisome. It is not yet unbearable and while I have no intention of "doing" anything about it, it does leave me wondering just how much more my body can handle before it decides it has had enough or will I find my continuance, my merely surviving, to be corrupting like that of Sméagol as he became Gollum under the One Ring's influence and living on only as a shadow of my former, once hopeful, self,
...a living mockery of a man...
Monday, December 8, 2014
COMPETITIVE GOLD AND SILVER
I should make it clear that I don't think the United States should return to the Gold Standard. I can't really articulate the argument why and it may seem surprising to hear such a thing from a coin collector. However, that doesn't mean I don't think gold coins shouldn't exist as money.
Why not have competing currencies? Congress could use its authority to coin silver and gold and put them into the marketplace as money alongside the present day fiat coins and currency.
Just don't give them the same name.
Leave dollars and cents to the fiat currencies. Leave them as is.
However, there was another denomination name in the past: the eagle. An "eagle" was another word for "ten dollars". The word never appeared on a coin. I think it was just an official name and nothing more.
The next step up was the union. A "union" was supposed to be another way of expressing "one hundred dollars". I remember the term coming up when there were talks of making $50 gold coins in response to the massive gold find in California back in 1848. The proposed $50 coin, which was never made, was referred to as a "half union".
We could run with those terms...
The silver coins could be referred to as eagles and denominated as such but with no official conversion formula. There could be quarter-eagles, half-eagles, eagles, and double eagles: 1/8, 1/4, 1/2, and 1 ounce of silver respectively.
The gold coins could be referred to as unions and denominated like the silver eagles with again, no conversion formula for the other currency types.
Smaller (or larger) versions of both types of coins could also be authorized if needed.
How many dollars one could get for these coins would vary based on market trends. Likewise, how many silver eagles one could get for a gold union would also vary.
The point would be to let the currencies comingle and be used by the public as desired. Laws to prevent abuse of the powerless could require employers to pay employees in the currency of their choice without fear of penalty as well as for banks to pay out debts in the currency desired by the account holder. Stores could post prices in three units much like it was during the Civil War when pricing based on paper money, silver, and gold could be found.
It might be a little confusing at first and it ultimately might mean nothing. Gold and silver money might prove unpopular with the public and limit its use in commerce. Or it could be very popular forcing Congress to make its dollars more attractive to the public.
I think it would be a fun experiment. I certainly don't see the harm in doing so.
Why not have competing currencies? Congress could use its authority to coin silver and gold and put them into the marketplace as money alongside the present day fiat coins and currency.
Just don't give them the same name.
Leave dollars and cents to the fiat currencies. Leave them as is.
However, there was another denomination name in the past: the eagle. An "eagle" was another word for "ten dollars". The word never appeared on a coin. I think it was just an official name and nothing more.
The next step up was the union. A "union" was supposed to be another way of expressing "one hundred dollars". I remember the term coming up when there were talks of making $50 gold coins in response to the massive gold find in California back in 1848. The proposed $50 coin, which was never made, was referred to as a "half union".
We could run with those terms...
The silver coins could be referred to as eagles and denominated as such but with no official conversion formula. There could be quarter-eagles, half-eagles, eagles, and double eagles: 1/8, 1/4, 1/2, and 1 ounce of silver respectively.
The gold coins could be referred to as unions and denominated like the silver eagles with again, no conversion formula for the other currency types.
Smaller (or larger) versions of both types of coins could also be authorized if needed.
How many dollars one could get for these coins would vary based on market trends. Likewise, how many silver eagles one could get for a gold union would also vary.
The point would be to let the currencies comingle and be used by the public as desired. Laws to prevent abuse of the powerless could require employers to pay employees in the currency of their choice without fear of penalty as well as for banks to pay out debts in the currency desired by the account holder. Stores could post prices in three units much like it was during the Civil War when pricing based on paper money, silver, and gold could be found.
It might be a little confusing at first and it ultimately might mean nothing. Gold and silver money might prove unpopular with the public and limit its use in commerce. Or it could be very popular forcing Congress to make its dollars more attractive to the public.
I think it would be a fun experiment. I certainly don't see the harm in doing so.
AN EYE FOR AN EYE...I GUESS
It really bugs me because I wanted to punish my store and union for not even considering that I was only doing what I thought was right (even if they ultimately disagreed). I wanted to punish my store for those suspensions by no longer shopping there.
I've been going to another supermarket to buy my foodstuffs but damn, that store is just poorly run and making a mockery of my barely-there protest. It's like they don't even believe in stocking. The gaps on the shelves cannot possibly be due to customers since I'm there shortly after opening. Y'know, when the Night Crew has had all night to restock the shelves. It's ridiculous. The store is already smaller than mine so this just only makes it more annoying. It's like this supermarket doesn't even care. The shelves are poorly blocked with items frequently not corresponding to their shelf tags or products mixed within forcing you to not take for granted what you're putting into the cart. They must have one of the highest raincheck numbers in the franchise.
I'm thinking I'm going to have to break it off. I'll have to rationalize it though. I figure I've lost about $500 to various suspensions over the years so maybe when I've spent $500 at this other store I can call it even.
Maybe...
I've been going to another supermarket to buy my foodstuffs but damn, that store is just poorly run and making a mockery of my barely-there protest. It's like they don't even believe in stocking. The gaps on the shelves cannot possibly be due to customers since I'm there shortly after opening. Y'know, when the Night Crew has had all night to restock the shelves. It's ridiculous. The store is already smaller than mine so this just only makes it more annoying. It's like this supermarket doesn't even care. The shelves are poorly blocked with items frequently not corresponding to their shelf tags or products mixed within forcing you to not take for granted what you're putting into the cart. They must have one of the highest raincheck numbers in the franchise.
I'm thinking I'm going to have to break it off. I'll have to rationalize it though. I figure I've lost about $500 to various suspensions over the years so maybe when I've spent $500 at this other store I can call it even.
Maybe...
